October 18th, 2006
She’s Dead, Isn’t She?
This is the first part of one of the earliest of my publishing successes. Unfortunately, the magazine it was published in is no longer being produced, however, to preserve the story on the Internet, I thought I would republish it for free for anyone who is interested. I’ll post it over the course of a few weeks with this part being the first: I hope you enjoy it as much as I did writing it.
“She’s dead, isn’t she?” Jane stared at the dancing flames lining the inglenook fireplace.
“Please, Jane, not again?” Craig was tired, exasperated by her persistence.
“Why won’t you answer me?” she insisted. “If you can’t tell me when she’ll be back, you must have killed her.”
“How many times do we have to do this, Jane? She’s gone to get food for the winter. She told you this herself. She’ll be back on Thursday, unless the snow makes the road impassable.” He sighed. “Jane, please look at me when I’m talking?”
“Why?”
“Because you’re being rude.”
“So?” Jane was defiant. “You killed my mother. That could also be considered rude.”
“For God’s sake, Jane, I’ve not killed your mother. She’s gone to the city. It’s simple.”
“That’s it, I’m calling the police. They’ll be interested to know all about you; especially when I say I’m to be your next victim.”
“I’m really sorry you don’t like me, Jane, but I didn’t mean to raise my voice. I got frustrated. I love your mother and want nothing more than to be your and Peter’s friend. I don’t want to be a replacement for your father, but I’d like to be someone you can both trust.”
“You should be ashamed. You can’t go around threatening eleven-year-old girls.”
“I’m really sorry; honest. Your mother’s fine. She’ll only be gone for a couple of days.” He folded his arms and settled back into the armchair. “Can I get you a drink? A peace offering.”
“Chocolate.” Her head snapped round.
“Please?” Craig gestured.
“Hot chocolate.”
“Hot chocolate?”
“Made with milk.”
Craig stood up, nodding his head. “Certainly, Madam.”
As he crossed the room, his languid gait presented Jane with the victory prize she’d been looking for; she’d won gold this time.
“Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit,” she called. She was on a roll.
Phantasmal shadows moved across the walls, the corollary of the candlelight in an aging house.
Craig’s head appeared through the archway. “It can also be considered the highest form of intelligence.”
“Not in your case.”
Jane jumped up and threw herself into Craig’s armchair. She nestled into the soft leather, silently praising Craig for warming it so thoughtfully. Closing her eyes, she put her head against the cushion and relaxed. It wasn’t that bad without mum around. Her mother had left them plenty of times when dad had been here. Back then there was never any trouble; except for the last time when he’d left for good. But that didn’t matter anymore; they’d all moved on. Fucking bastard asshole.
She laughed, repeating the profanity over again in her head. Bad language made her happy. She loved the way a word could be considered worse than another word. Surely words are just there for our communicative needs? It’s the meaning hidden within words that’s important. You can be just as malignant towards your prey with strings of harmless words as you can with so-called profanities.
“Is my chocolate nearly ready?”
No answer.
Suddenly he was deaf.
“Ignoring me now?” Jane shouted.
More next time…
By the way, I’ve finished The Secret of Crickley Hall today (James Herbert’s latest masterpiece) and am heading to the bookshop tomorrow to find something new to get my teeth into. Any suggestions are welcome.